In Mark 10 verses 46-52 the bible tells the story of Bartimaeus being healed of his blindness. When you first read this story, the focus is always on how Jesus heals him. He walks away a seeing man, healed of his blindness, his sight has been restored, praise to Jesus for this miracle He has done. I couldn’t help but not focus on the miracle in this passage….I focused on Jesus and HIS words. Jesus called Bartimaeus over to Him and do you want to know the first thing he said to him? He says “What do you want me to do for you?” This is Jesus we’re talking about. Jesus knows. Jesus knows and can very well see that this man is blind and he wants his vision restored. Jesus knows the very desires of our heart. Why would he ask him?
The Lord knows that I long for a healthy baby. The Lord knows the ache in my body that consumes me to start our family. He knows. I don’t have to voice it. But I NEED to. I decided months ago to pray hard for our future children. I believe God will provide for us. I believe that he will be faithful to us. And I will pray hard and pray through the fears, the sadness, the anger, the grief, the confusion, I will continue to pray through all of this for a baby.
Just to show you what this looks like – above is a picture of part of my prayer wall. If you take a line and draw it down the middle of the cross….all the prayers on the right side of this picture are for our future family and prayers for a baby. I have yet to let up on praying specifically for that. Along with many other prayers up on that wall and on my other wall (of answered prayers) I believe God has his hand in all of them.
I whole heartedly believe that God wants us to pray boldly. He wants us to ask specifically for the desires of our hearts, he wants us to trust in his power. When we don’t pray specifically for what we want, how will we know that it was an answered prayer from God? We have room to blame it on “coincidence” or room to wonder “why.” When we pray specifically, we know with full assurance that it is God’s work and his answers. I think many times we get scared to pray specific prayers, but why not? Why not pray hard? Why not pray boldly? Why not believe with your whole being that God will provide? We know he can, right? God can do anything. He is the creator of this entire universe! I challenge you to pray like you know he is.
Over the past few months, I’ve realized how much of an impact writing my prayers down have been. Not just prayers concerning me and my family but so many prayers for friends, family, and strangers. I share prayers that are just concerning my situation (due to respect out of others and their private lives) but oh how God has worked through others to grow my faith. Seeing God answer prayers for those around me gives me hope that we will answer the prayers concerning the desires of my life as well. I will never forget, sitting in my rocker one morning, writing a prayer for a sweet friend who was at an appointment to check on her pregnancy. I was praying so hard for a good check up and a good scan because I knew she was feeling anxious about it. I kid you not, during that very prayer, I got a text saying “all is good and baby is healthy!” Right then, my faith grew.
On another occasion I prayed very hard for a friends grandma, who was not doing well at all. She was struggling very hard with the prolonging of her sickness so our prayer became to heal her back to 100% health or if it was God’s will then take her soon and peacefully to take her pain away. The morning I wrote that exact prayer, I received a text that her grandma had just hours to live instead of the months that were expected. The next day, she came into my mind like a jolt. It was like I heard a “check on her now” voice in my head. I texted her at 3:00 that afternoon to check in. At 3:12 I received a text back that said her grandma passed away 10 minutes ago. Right when I read that, I knew the Holy Spirit is what promoted me to reach out at that exact time. Right then, my faith grew.
There have even been several women that I have prayed for to get pregnant and being able to hear the news that God is faithful, has brought me to tears every time. For each text or call that I have gotten with letting me know they are expecting…right then, my faith grows.
This list could go on and on. Truth be told, it could go on at least 34 more times. This is the number of answered ‘specific prayers’ that I have written in just the last 5 months. I have started to go through my prayers and take the ones that God has answered or I can visibly see his hand working in and moving them to a separate wall. By doing this, it has been evident that God is at work when I pray boldly and specifically, his work is actually visible…all right there in front of my face. There is no denying God when you see this. There are no coincidences, there are no chances, there’s no luck, or “just so happens.” There is only God.
So, if Jesus were to call you. He brings you over to him and flat out asks you, “What do you want me to do for you?” Would you not shout at the top of your lungs that you desire your sight? You desire health, another job opportunity, someone to spend your life with, peace, forgiveness, a baby? Whatever it is, He wants you to ask him! He already knows but He wants us to voice it so we can see the undeniable work of the Almighty when He answers! Not just once, continually tell Him what your desires are! Some may ask the question, but what if he doesn’t answer? You’ll never know if you never respond to His question. “What do you want me to do for you?”
“Lord, I come before you to praise you and to tell you how much I love you. Lord you are so good to us and God I have faith in you. I have faith you are going to bless us with another baby. I pray you help me to be patient and lean on you during this waiting time. God I pray for that future baby. I prat it is healthy and grows to be a child of yours. I pray so hard for this blessing. I truly believe you want Anthony and I to be parents one day and I believe you will bless us with a wonderful little soul. In Jesus name I pray!”
“Lord, right now I pray for our future family. Thank you for the hope that you give me, the peace, the comfort, Lord fill me with them daily. Lord, I pray if it’s your will we are blessed with a baby soon! This month! I want that so bad, I long for it. Lord I pray you hear me! Please hear me and please answer! I will testify to your answered prayers! Lord I will follow you and love you no matter what. Our hope is in you Lord. I pray this in Christ Jesus name amen!”
“God, I praise you for the family you have blessed me with. I am so incredibly blessed to have been brought up with my parents and my sisters, in the house we were raised. Thank you Lord. God I thank you for my amazing husband, for his heart and soul. God, I pray for him and I pray you give him wisdom. Shower him with wisdom only from you, so he can lead our family. I pray you keep the enemy far away from his spirit. I pray you make him bold and courageous in the decisions that he makes! Guide, guard, and protect him daily. Lord, I pray his heart to be fueled with your love, your spirit. Speak to him in ways he will receive you and hear you. I pray he sees and knows the true and big picture of this life. I pray you give me wisdom to help him. Help me to be a good example with my actions not just words. Help me to not prod and poke encouragement at him because that is not of Christ. Help me to be Christ like in my actions to help him. Help me to be submissive to him in love, every day. Lord, help me to work hard to help provide for our family. God, I pray for our future children. I pray we raise them to know you and to love you fully. I pray for their hearts and souls and that you keep the enemy from them from start to finish. Intercede every time the enemy gets close to their spirits. We have no room for him here. God YOU are the almighty, you have already won this battle. I pray you help me to keep my family on the victorious side…never veering to the enemy’s side. Hold our hands as the family we are and the family we will be. Never let go of our hands, with you, or with each other. We love you. I love you. Forgive me. In Jesus name!”